February 2nd 2005
just meh
Not really in a posting mood today. I’m still recovering from the cold (the cold from hell), my blood sugar and blood pressure are low, so I’m freezing and tired, and the sun hasn’t been out since we got home two days ago.
And the relentless waiting is getting to me. The what-ifs press on my mind and leave me little room to be positive or energetic. Which is not to say I’m wallowing in some sort of self-inflicted waiting misery. I’m just sort of blah. I feel kind of like a blank slate, but not in the good, anticipation-y way—more in the sad, abandoned kind of way. Just sitting here, no chalk to be found, waiting for something to break the silence.
You see? This is why I should not post when I’m in these kind of moods. I come across as whiny—and I can’t stand whiners. I have no room to complain, and I’m not really complaining, in fact. I’m just tired of this limbo, this gray space between good news and action.
I’ve tried before with little luck, but maybe you’re all as bored as I am with my mood: any requests out there?
