divine angst

I’m rereading yesterday’s post and I realize I sound sort of…what’s the word? petulant? about the decision we’ve made.

So I want to clarify: no, the school I’ll be attending isn’t my first choice. But for our little family, going east rather than north is the best choice. I am, in general, not a negative person and I hate it when I get bogged down in the bad rather than the good. This means that I am already getting excited about our move. We’ve told my family and they’re all thrilled and I’ve started counting all the great things about where we’ll be in four months. My in-laws will be close—close enough to visit often if we want, and I am certain they’ll come visit us often. My soon-to-be-born nephew will be close, and we’ll get to be the fun aunt and uncle who are around while he’s growing up. One of my very best friends from college lives in the city we’re moving to, as does the little sister of my bestest friend in the world.

All of these social factors will play a BIG part in our happiness after we’ve moved. Again, I like to be happy, so these are all Good Things.

As for the school I’ll be at—no, it’s not my first choice. But it’s not my last choice, either, and there are a lot of wonderful things about it. There’s the scholarship, the excellent faculty (as far as my research indicates), good opportunities for someone who really likes to write and help other people learn to write. And Mr. Angst and I will BOTH be students there. So our personal life will be more stable which will contribute to better academic performance—I know I do my best work when I’m not fretting about my relationships.

I’m getting excited, and that feels good. Sure, right now I’m mostly getting excited about the city and not the school, but I didn’t get to go to Admitted Students’ Day, so I may need a little more time for that.

I’m still, by the way, trying to stay sort of googlenonymous about where I’ll be, but it’s not too tough to figure out. If you go there and have words of wisdom, share them! I’d like to hear some more perspectives (particularly if you’re maybe a little nontraditional. That would be great).