divine angst

Apartment obtained! After a quick stop for bagels and coffee, we spent a scant hour signing papers and writing checks (first and last months’ rents! egad!) and walked out with a lease.

As we walked out, papers in hand, we wandered over to the historic and quaint church right across the street, just to see what it was. Turns out it’s my denomination and it appears to have a stellar music program. Better and better!

So I’m pretty excited about everything. My mom commented that everything relating to this life change of ours seems to fall into place incredibly smoothly—and she’s right. I can think of no other sign that this is, indeed, the path we’re meant to be on.

Mr. Angst and I had a very long, involved, and sometimes heated conversation with our host last night. I don’t think I’m going to write about the substance of it right now (I think I’ll follow CM’s 24-hour rule at least) but it has left me feeling sort of drained. All was resolved before we went to bed, but I still feel….touchy?

The point of THIS post is to say this: I don’t think I’ve ever realized how deeply I believe certain things. And how hard it is for me to see things rationally regarding those things. And my feelings get hurt easily when those things I deeply believe are attacked. It’s left me feeling vulnerable and uncomfortable. I want to get past that place of itchiness today, and I’m definitely working on it. After all, we’ve got the whole day left in Our New City.