divine angst

I just found out I got into a class off the waitlist. The class seems a better fit for my strengths, but I’m not sure I want to jump into it. First, I’ve missed a week’s worth of class. Second, it meets on Monday and Wednesday afternoons at 3, which would leave me with an 8:45 am class on Tuesdays followed by . . . nothing. I’m not sure I like that for time reasons.

Also, I already have the books for my current class (Comparative Law), and I can’t return them. Why? Because of course the bookstore set the last day for returns to YESTERDAY. Why they can’t set the last day for returns to the same day as the last day for class drops is beyond me. But there it is–I’m free to drop Comparative until midnight tonight, but I can’t take the books back. And it’s not like they’ll be in high demand online, either.

So I’m going to both today. And I’ll make a decision sometime after that. What a pain, though!

Grades should be posted sometime today, as I understand it. I had been checking sort of obsessively, since Monday, when grades were due, until I stopped to think:

Do I really want to get my grades while I’m in class? Or near other people? Don’t I want to look at them when I am alone, and steeled for whatever might be revealed?

So I stopped obsessively checking. No more checking in class. No more checking right before class. No more checking when I’m sitting at a study table with a classmate. It’s better this way. After all, they are what they are and I can’t change them. So it’s best to absorb them when I am ready.

Update:

I’m sequestered away in the library, doing my Property reading. I’ve been intermittantly checking for grades. So far, two grades are in. One was no surprise–I had already calculated my legal writing grade. The other . . . well, given it was my last final (and I’m pretty sure I mixed up implied right of action and negligence per se on it), I’m pleased.

Update II:

All grades are in. I am not disappointed. And that’s all that I’m going to say about that.

THIS is why I hate my 8:45 am classes.

(Hat tip to my Con Law prof, who pointed out that she is one of those who need the maximum amount of time to reach full awakeness. I think I am too.)