divine angst

Somehow, I thought I’d have more time this summer. I thought that, since I can do my work whenever (and mostly whereever) I want, I’d go to the pool more frequently, or be more productive at home with the packing, or just spend more time doing things.

What I have discovered is that I am not a person who really does things. I need a motivator to do something. Last night, Mr. Angst and I did something–we went out, in other words–but that’s not the sort of thing I’m talking about. No, I’m more talking about getting out of bed and deciding to pack a box–because I can!–or putting on my sneakers and going for a run. What do I do instead? I pick up my computer, and stare at it for hours at a time.

I don’t want to suggest that law school turned me into a couch potato, or a computer-head. I really was those things before. But law school has not really forced me to NOT be a couch potato or a computer-head. My work is almost all on the computer. I read the news on the computer. I look for a Thai place that has kao soy on the menu on the computer. I don’t have much impetus to get up off my butt.

This week, my goal is to spend less time on the computer. If I am at home and TV sucks and I am bored, I will pack boxes. If I am at school, on the clock, I will waste less time checking my email and reading blogs. That will give me more time to go to the pool if I want, to take a walk, to put on my sneakers and go running.

I don’t like not having a routine, and I am not good at disciplining myself into a routine. But I’m going to step up my efforts this week.

Don’t forget that this week’s Law School Roundup is at Evan Schaeffer’s Legal Underground. Go take a look at the tabloid-headline posts Evan’s collected! Next week, per normal, the roundup will be back here.