divine angst

I’ve been having these mild spells of vertigo for the last couple of days and I’m starting to wonder what’s going on with my body. I’ve been getting up pretty early this week (though, fat lot of good it did me yesterday, boo), so I’m thinking it might just be tiredness/exhaustion. But we also haven’t been eating well this week since we’re both kind of slammed, so it could be that my body is just feeling a little underfed or malnourished (malnourished in the sense of getting the proper nutrients, because goodness knows I’ve been consuming enough calories).

I’ve had brief spells of vertigo before, but usually they are very isolated incidents–so I’ll feel dizzy on and off over a period of a few hours, and it will go away and I won’t experience it again for months. This time, the dizziness is still on and off over a few hours, but then it comes back a few hours later. I’m debating being really irresponsible this evening and taking a good long nap–I can’t read anyway.

The funny thing is that when I am not feeling well, I generally don’t take care of myself–I put off taking any painkillers, I resist sleeping or eating well, and I feel guilty and angry the whole time. Right now, I feel like the best thing I can do is take a nap–and that feels like a good decision. I’m actually kind of happy about it.